There are girls who put a lot of effort into looking really cute. There are magazines full of women in flowy flattering gowns. There are hipster chicks who will layer a camisole over a striped tee with skinny jeans, a wide belt and a neon green plastic bangle.

I am none of those women. But I’ve tried!

I went shopping for a wedding dress and tried on all kinds of things I’d never normally consider wearing. I tried upscale shops, consignment shops, thrift stores, all places I’d never normally go. And where did I get my dress? At Marshall’s of course. Johanna said, “That dress looks like it came out of her closet. Did she search her whole closet? Even in the back?”

When we went to meet Dooce and Blurb in Austin yesterday, I was fretting over what to wear. Should I wear the skinny jeans so I can be cool with all the hipsters? Should I look cute? I considered wearing my teal eyeshadow b.c it’s fun. But I didn’t want Dooce and Blurb’s first impression of me to be “girl in teal eyeshadow.”

I really thought far too much about that meet and greet. I was super nervous. I also have The Most Supportive Boyfriend Ever who agreed to skip our weekly training ride to drive to Austin to wait in line for 20 minutes to say hi to people who don’t know us. A lady behind me in line asked, “What are you going to do when you get up there?”

“Drool and stutter, probably.”

Anyway, I ended up wearing comfy jeans and one of my favorite shirts and regular (not teal) eyeshadow.

And today I went to a shower (for me!) and I tried on SO MANY THINGS to wear to the shower. Dresses, dresses over tees, layered shirts over skirts over jeans. But I’m not fashionably creative!! I’m not like my old ceramics teacher who would sew random parts of t-shirts together to form one uneven one and throw it on with slim jeans, a large cowboy belt and Nikes.

I decided that I am who I am and who I am dresses very boring. I will “dress up” by changing out of my everyday earrings and putting on my good eyeshadow.